by Jen L LeMaire
12/25/2003

Manic fast buzzing in my head
I am rapid-fire brain-breeze
Flying through the night.
Emotions soar above the clouds
Nothing lies below
Only giddy relief from cloying fog
Surrounds my scattered brain.
Go and move, fly and fast
high, low- It really doesn't matter
In here to me right now.
I'm just buzzing on whatever
Fuels my scattered mind.
I feel like I've been spun a million times
Now I'm lying still waiting
For the world to stop moving.
Circles within circles
My life is an onion-
Peel me back and cry
Pain hides behind
Glittery masks of what could have been
And what may yet be.
I am afraid, but--
The joy of temporary relief
Carries me for yet another short while.
Until the dark comes
Again to claim my soul.
Goodnight sweet mist-
Parting is never eternal.

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